Tuesday, February 22, 2011

Introducing Cupcake!


We got to see our little Cupcake today and hear the heartbeat! Doc says I'm 6wks and 2 days along which is 3 days ahead of what I calculated. My official due date is Oct 16. The heartbeat was 111 which the Doc said was on the low side of the normal range but was to be expected because it is so early. I hope he's right because I don't need anything else to worry about! I feel so much better now knowing that everything is good with the Cupcake. My wife has been calling the baby that so I figured it would be a good blog name. Doc said he is implanted high in my uterus which is good so that made me feel better.

The bad news is that I have a huge cyst on my left ovary which is what has been causing my lower back pain. He also said the cyst won't interfere with Cupcake. My blood pressure was also high but the nurse said that could be from having a sinus infection right now and they will just keep an eye on it. And last but not least, the Doc is testing my thyroid because of how cold I've been. I'll know the results of that test tomorrow. I have an appt for 3/14 to check on Cupcake and the cyst again before he releases me to the OB.

i feel good about this though and WE HAVE FORWARD PROGRESS!!

the big day

Well today is the big day. We have our first ultrasound at 3 today. I am so worried that something will be wrong or nothing will even be there. I still have no morning sickness and the internet says that I should have morning sickness! That has to mean I'm not pregnant right? See...This is how my mind has been working lately. My wife tells me to relax and that everything is ok. I guess we will find out at 3 today. Wish us luck!

Tuesday, February 15, 2011

Tomorrow will be 5 weeks and I still can't believe it. So far my symptoms are cramping off and on, loss of appetite, but not for any reason, sore boobs, and let's just say I'm having trouble in the pooping department. lol. And oh yeah...I'm so tired! I go to bed at 9/9:30 every night. Our ultrasound is 1 week from today and I just want to see our little baby so that I can feel assured that nothing is wrong. I want to make sure everything is where it needs to be.

Now that I'm pregnant, I find myself having to make up excuses as to why I can't drink. I feel guilty like they're on to me! My coworkers and I used to go to happy hour about once a month and see each other socially pretty regularly and drinks were always involved. We went and made chocolate last week which was fun but I was the only one not drinking. Then I was asked out 2x now to go out and I keep making up excuses why I can't go. My cousin is coming in town and playing a show this weekend and all my friends and coworkers are going so I know they will want to know why I'm not drinking. I'll be glad when 12 weeks is up so I can tell them. I guess a lot of our social habits revolved around drinking or maybe I'm just paranoid now. Thank god it's not football season because then my buddies would really know something was up if I was watching a game with no beer!

Tuesday, February 8, 2011

I just got off the phone and my first appt is for the 22nd. By that time I will be a day shy of 7 weeks. That is so weird to say. They wanted me to wait until mid-March when I would be 10 weeks along only because my Dr was going to be on vacation and I told them no. They also wanted me to make the appt on the 24th but I said no because my wife couldn't be there. These are 2 more reasons that I am so glad to be done with them. We had already planned to switch RE's if this try didn't take and it's the reason we used both remaining vials. I am so happy how this ended though and after this ultrasound I will be done with them forever! Now I have another tww until I can see my baby's first image. I just pray that everything is where it needs to be. I hope everyone is well!

Sunday, February 6, 2011

Surreal

I got my second beta number today and all seems well which we are thankful for. We did 2 insems this cycle so the first beta was 13d/12dpiui and it was 64. That was Friday and they told me that today they wanted to see it at least double. I had been so worried that it wouldn't and that something would be wrong but today on 15d/14dpiui it was 194! It tripled which made me very happy! They also said my progesterone was 26.1 which was "excellent" according to the nurse which meant I don't need supplements. Now I just need to make an appt for the first week of March for an ultrasound to make sure everything looks good. I calculated that my due date is around Oct 15th which means I'm about 4 weeks pregnant. This is just so unreal and we keep looking at each other with disbelief. Going into this journey we always assumed we would get a baby but I never imagined how surreal it would be when we actually got pregnant. I just pray that this sticks because we want this baby more than anything we have ever wanted. So far I'm exhausted, constipated, no appetite, and feeling kind of crampy at times and then nothing at other times. Any advice would be greatly appreciated as to what to do/not to do, foods to eat/stay away from, and anything else you guys can think of. Thank you for all the support up until now. This community has been a huge support for me and I am so thankful.

Friday, February 4, 2011

Holy Shit!

I was told I could test today so of course I tested last night and got this:


I tested again (after running out for more tests) and got this:



*****the nurse called and said my beta was 64 which she says is good. I'm going back Sunday morning and they want to see that double or at least go up 66%. Now I all have to worry about is seeing it double! What were everyone else's beta results? This is still so unreal!!

Tuesday, February 1, 2011

down to the wire

This wait is killing me! We're getting down to the wire and we should know before this week is done. The doc says I can test Friday. I usually never get to the 2 week mark and always start before then. If I can get to Friday that will be a huge accomplishment. I had my progesterone tested Saturday and didn't need the supplements. They said that it need to be over 15 and mine was 15.4. To add the pain of this wait, we have a stroller sitting in our house. I mean really?? A friend gave us the stroller and told us we could use it for our kid. That was way too early so I gave it to my sister. Now, she gave it back which is why it's sitting at our house. If this works, then cool, but if it doesn't I'm getting rid of the damn thing, but until then I still have to look at it! Also to add to the fucked upness of having a stroller in my house, I had a dream last night that I had a miscarriage! My brain is obviously whacked out right now. I'm taking it one day at time and hoping that this try will finally bring an end to this ttc journey so we can start the next one.