1st OB visit

We had our 1st OB visit today and it was very anticlimactic! We were hoping to see our little cupcake but NO! We went in and filled out forms and were told we owe them $675 by 6/24 which is what we will owe them after insurance. I also got to have a pap smear and std test. The Dr is nice and she is my gyn so I'm used to her. They also gave me a flu shot and scheduled me for the NT test on 4/11. I can't believe we have to wait that long to see cupcake again! They scheduled me for some lab work and I have to do the glucose test now apparently because I'll be 35 when I deliver. Apparently, that is the magic number or "advanced maternal age" as the doc called it. Fuck that, it means I waited for the right person and am financially sound so I'm ready to have a baby. I need to call the lab and schedule the blood work and glucose test and then I go back for a prenatal visit on 4/19. So I guess that means all is well but I'm still a little bummed that she didn't even want to see my beautiful baby cause I know we were both hoping for a peek. She also changed my due date to 10/19 but I'm sticking with what the RE said which is 10/16. The ob is going off my last period and the re is going off my ovulation. I took the damn trigger shot so I guess he knows better then her when I ovulated. So here we are at 10wks 2 days according to the RE or 9wks 6 days according to the ob.

9.5 weeks

I can't believe that I've made it this far! 9.5 weeks seems so surreal to me. I haven't blogged lately because I've been trying not to get too excited. I feel like it will all be ripped out from under us before each appointment. Speaking of appointments, we had one on Monday. I was so nervous because it had been 3 weeks since our last one and I wanted everything to be ok with cupcake. If you've read this blog, it's no secret how much I was over our RE's office and Monday did not disappoint. We had taken half days from work that day so we could go to our 2pm RE appt and a 4pm tax appt. We show up right at 2 and the receptionist just says "you didn't get the call?" Uh no, what call? The Dr is snowed in from his vacation and they called everyone to reschedule, can you some back tomorrow at 2? Uh no! I need to see someone today, so she calls the other office and sends us there to meet with another Dr. What a pain in the ass because the other office is like 10 minutes from work and I could of just gone there to begin with! All was well though when we saw the cutest blob of a baby ever! Everything was good with cupcake and he/she was waiving their little arms and had a heartbeat of 164! They finally released us and we have an appointment with the OB this coming Tuesday. I think I'm finally starting to calm down and realize that cupcake is going to stick around. Its so funny cause all through this I knew we'd get a baby somehow but I never once imagined myself to be pregnant. In fact, I never wanted to be pregnant and just assumed that my wife would carry the baby. That was until we found out she couldn't which led us to where we are now. I still stop and think, oh my god...I am pregnant!

7 weeks

Not much to report here. We hit the 7 week mark last Sunday. I'm still tired all the time. No morning sickness to speak of but I'm starting to feel a little worse in the mornings but if I eat, I usually feel better. I even woke up at 3am last night and was hungry and a little queasy so I drank some juice. I'm hooked on this naked juice that is nothing but fruits and vegetables with some vitamins and fiber mixed in. It's really thick and it holds me over until I can eat some breakfast. I chugged some of that last night and it seems to do the trick and curb that gross feeling in my stomach. Boobs are still sore and I'm peeing a lot. I had a sinus infection for the last week and half and I'm starting to feel better but with that my sense of smell is coming back. My wife used to joke with me that I could never smell anything before but now I smell everything which is not always good. We have another appt on 3/14 so we still have 2 more weeks before we see cupcake again. I swear we'll never get away from the dreaded 2 week wait! I hope all is well with everyone and congrats to all the BFP's going around!

Introducing Cupcake!

We got to see our little Cupcake today and hear the heartbeat! Doc says I'm 6wks and 2 days along which is 3 days ahead of what I calculated. My official due date is Oct 16. The heartbeat was 111 which the Doc said was on the low side of the normal range but was to be expected because it is so early. I hope he's right because I don't need anything else to worry about! I feel so much better now knowing that everything is good with the Cupcake. My wife has been calling the baby that so I figured it would be a good blog name. Doc said he is implanted high in my uterus which is good so that made me feel better.

The bad news is that I have a huge cyst on my left ovary which is what has been causing my lower back pain. He also said the cyst won't interfere with Cupcake. My blood pressure was also high but the nurse said that could be from having a sinus infection right now and they will just keep an eye on it. And last but not least, the Doc is testing my thyroid because of how cold I've been. I'll know the results of that test tomorrow. I have an appt for 3/14 to check on Cupcake and the cyst again before he releases me to the OB.

i feel good about this though and WE HAVE FORWARD PROGRESS!!

the big day

Well today is the big day. We have our first ultrasound at 3 today. I am so worried that something will be wrong or nothing will even be there. I still have no morning sickness and the internet says that I should have morning sickness! That has to mean I'm not pregnant right? See...This is how my mind has been working lately. My wife tells me to relax and that everything is ok. I guess we will find out at 3 today. Wish us luck!

Tomorrow will be 5 weeks and I still can't believe it. So far my symptoms are cramping off and on, loss of appetite, but not for any reason, sore boobs, and let's just say I'm having trouble in the pooping department. lol. And oh yeah...I'm so tired! I go to bed at 9/9:30 every night. Our ultrasound is 1 week from today and I just want to see our little baby so that I can feel assured that nothing is wrong. I want to make sure everything is where it needs to be.

Now that I'm pregnant, I find myself having to make up excuses as to why I can't drink. I feel guilty like they're on to me! My coworkers and I used to go to happy hour about once a month and see each other socially pretty regularly and drinks were always involved. We went and made chocolate last week which was fun but I was the only one not drinking. Then I was asked out 2x now to go out and I keep making up excuses why I can't go. My cousin is coming in town and playing a show this weekend and all my friends and coworkers are going so I know they will want to know why I'm not drinking. I'll be glad when 12 weeks is up so I can tell them. I guess a lot of our social habits revolved around drinking or maybe I'm just paranoid now. Thank god it's not football season because then my buddies would really know something was up if I was watching a game with no beer!

I just got off the phone and my first appt is for the 22nd. By that time I will be a day shy of 7 weeks. That is so weird to say. They wanted me to wait until mid-March when I would be 10 weeks along only because my Dr was going to be on vacation and I told them no. They also wanted me to make the appt on the 24th but I said no because my wife couldn't be there. These are 2 more reasons that I am so glad to be done with them. We had already planned to switch RE's if this try didn't take and it's the reason we used both remaining vials. I am so happy how this ended though and after this ultrasound I will be done with them forever! Now I have another tww until I can see my baby's first image. I just pray that everything is where it needs to be. I hope everyone is well!