The acupuncture consultation went great! She told me a lot of things that made sense. I am going to see her tomorrow to do my first treatment. She is going to put the needles around my stomach in a way that will stimulate my reproductive system to open up which will allow for better blood flow which in turn ups your chances of getting pregnant. We also talked about other things that she is going to work on. I feel like I'm always tired and my shoulder has been aching so she said she could help me with that as well. She said that this stuff will just help me for when the baby comes. I like her positive thinking!

In other news, tomorrow is my 34th birthday and my beautiful wife is taking me to a Ko.be, a Japanese steakhouse...YUM!

acupuncture

So I have this friend who did 3 IUI's and then for her 4th try did acupuncture and got pregnant. So that got me to thinking...why not try it? I totally believe in that so why not? It's $75 a session and she only went once at a certain time in her cycle and it worked. I have my first appt today at 12:45 to check it out. It's supposed to up your chances like 20% so I'm all for trying it! Has anyone out there tried that? If so, what are your thoughts? I'll let you know how it turns out.

CD, Friday the 13th!

Look who can ovulate!!

I've been testing since CD9 for the first time in my life, just for practice. I was starting to think that maybe I couldn't ovulate, but looks like I can! I was doing the calculations and if I start my period on 5/5 like I'm supposed to, and ovulate on CD13 again, that puts our first IUI on 5/18, and our TWW up on 6/1 which is my Dad's birthday. Wouldn't it be nice to have a BFP on our very first try and also Grandaddy's birthday?? I know...I know...wishful thinking, but you have to stay positive! Off to celebrate with the wifey that I CAN ovulate. That's a huge step forward in our TTC journey. WE HAVE FORWARD PROGRESS!!!

CD12

So I've tested since last Monday which was CD9, and still no smiley face to say I'm ovulating. Today is CD12, so I hope I get that smiley face tonight. It's weird because now all of a sudden I have this fear that I won't ovulate. I'm beginning to see how crazy this TTC train is! We're not even doing our first IUI this month, this is just supposed to be our "practice" month. If we get the smiley face, then that is our green light to do our first attempt in May. Here's to hoping I see that smiley face tonight! According to my tracker, I should ovulate Friday, which means I should surge today right?? I guess we'll find out....

CD9

So here goes my first attempt at tracking. Today is CD9. The Doc told me to test for my surge on CD10 which is tomorrow. I'm going to test tonight when I get home though just cause. I guess I'm already getting test happy. So we bought our first OPK's this weekend which was weird. All I could think about was the fact that we're hopping on this crazy TTC train very soon!! It's nerve racking, exciting, and scary all at the same time. It doesn't help that I have been lurking for months reading everyone else's blogs so I feel like I have an idea of what to expect but know that I have no clue.



My boss was in my office today chatting with me about it which was nice. She has been so cool about the whole thing and actually went through it herself with her partner. We're actually using her RE, which makes things at work a little easier. It took her 9 times....God I hope it happens quick for us...but don't we all. We only have 3 vials so here's to hoping! I called the Doc's office today and all my tests were good, the juice is there, and all we need is a surge and they'll shoot us up. It's crazy to think that our plan is coming together...we just need it to work!



So Saturday was crazy busy, but fun. Here's a rundown of what we did that day alone! I figured I would give you a glimpse into our lives.

• 8am Saturday we ran an 8k (4.92 miles) for organ donation and finished in 1 hour 3 minutes. Not too shabby considering my best time for a 5k (3.1 miles) is 36 minutes.


• picked up our season tickets to the Orlando Predators, did I mention I LOVE FOOTBALL


• went to a wedding at 1pm


• had lunch and ran home to let the dogs out


• went to a retirement party for one of T's professors from college at 4pm


• 5pm was the wedding reception


• friends birthday party at cheesy club

So as you can see, it was busy. We then drove to Crescent City to pick up my brother on Sunday who was there fishing with our Dad an Uncles. It's about time to leave now, we're going to meet one of my wife's good friends for dinner so she can fill her in on our baby making plans.

So I'm at work today driving myself crazy looking for ways to track my cycle. We saw the doctor and it looks like we will be trying for the 1st time this May. Today is CD4 for me and the doc said to start testing CD10, so I'm getting nevous! Apparently, my cycle is only 24-25 days long which doesn't seem to bother the Doc, so I guess I'm ok with it. Looks like this weekend, we will be on the hunt to find some OPK's so that we can test this cycle to find out when I might ovulate. I'd ask for suggestions, but no one's reading but my wife! LOL

And oh yeah....our swimmers are getting shipped today! We bought 3 vials, so I'm hoping that's all we'll need, but I'm realistic to the fact that we may have to try more times then that. If we do though, our guy won't have anymore samples until Aug/Sept so I guess we'll have to see how that works out. Do you know how hard it was to find a South American donor that looks like my wife?? There aren't many out there and this guy is our first and only choice really......so come on God, let it take within 3!

Anyway, back to work!

About 2 hours after my first post last Sunday, I had to rush our Boston Terrier, Sophie, to the emergency vet. She woke up from her nap and couldn't lift her head up and she had no control over her back legs. IT FREAKED ME OUT! I picked her up and ran out the door with her. I knew something was wrong because she just laid in the seat next to me. She's usually thrilled to be on a car ride. She ended up being diagnosed with some sort of neck injury and is home resting and taking her muscle relaxers, pain relievers, steroids, and antibiotics (from an ear hematoma 10 days ago!). I think it's muscular because she has a huge knot on her shoulder and you can feel it spasming, but we won't know for sure until her x-ray next week. Apparently, they don't do the x-ray until after a week because the course of treatment is the same no matter what they find.

This brings me to this realization....I had to do this alone, because as I mentioned in my earlier post, Tatiana, was at her parents house for Easter dinner. You see, I have no relation with my in-laws, and have been in the same room with them 3 times in 5.5 years. It is what it is and we both adjust, but what if it had been our baby that was hurt?? She has no reception there, and all I could do was text her and hope she would check her phone at some point. When she got the message she immediately left, but I just couldn't help but think, what if it was our kid? I asked her and she just shook her head, unsure of what to say, but what could she say, it's just how it is.

My family is more accepting, my Mom even helped plan our wedding, but I have had my own issues with them lately. My mother's reaction to our appointment tomorrow (with the RE!) was less than enthusiastic. I thought for sure that she would be excited. We have talked about having kids with her on several occasions and she has seemed more than excited, which is why her reaction to our appointment has really pissed me off. I tried bringing it up again thinking the initial shock needed to wear off and I was met with the same response. I offered her info on the donor and she told me that she had go because my step-dad just got home and that she would look later. She must have sensed my attitude because she called right back claiming she" couldn't wait that long". When she pulled him up all she could say was "oh he's cute". Whatever, I'm so over her and hurt by all of this right now all I can do is keep my distance, which has caused her to call me and offer to pay for the appointment. She likes to buy people off so I declined. This is the first time that I have ever sensed her being stand offish about the whole "gay" thing. I think it has to do with her not knowing/wanting to show off her grandkid and having to explain that he has 2 mom's. At my step-dad's birthday a couple of weeks ago, she had co-workers there and she introduced Tatiana as my "friend". Fuck that! She is my wife, you helped plan the damn wedding! At least say partner! She introduced my brother and sister and their respective "fiances". Or say daughter-in-law...no one will usually ask who she's married to. Besides, I look like a big dyke so it's not a surprise to people that I'm gay!

On a brighter note, we have our appointment with the RE tomorrow to find out the steps we need to take to create our own destiny. I'll keep you posted as to how it turns out. If anyone out there even cares...LOL

Well, this is officially my first post. It's my first foray into blogging actually and who knows if anyone will actually read this. Either way, this blog is for me to chronicle my wife and I's journey on creating our own destiny.

My wife, Tatiana, and I were married in Massachusetts on Nov. 10, 2009. It was an emotional day as well as our 5 year anniversary. We were married at the Wellesley Town Hall with her Aunt and Uncle there with us. We had this trip planned for months, us going to New England, getting married, and having a pre-honeymoon exploring Boston, Vermont, New Hampshire, Cape Cod, and Montreal. We made it to all of those places but unfortunately our trip was cut short because my Granddad passed away Nov. 9th. We were married at 5pm on a Tuesday the 10th and by 6am Wednesday morning we were on a flight to Alabama for the funeral followed by a flight to Oklahoma for the burial. In 10 days we were on 7 flights, in 6 states, plus Canada, drove over 1,000 miles and experienced the highs of getting married (legally I might add!) and the sorrows of death. My beautiful wife was there by my side the whole time.

When we made it back to Florida, it was Thanksgiving, and more wedding plans. You see on Dec 5th we had plans for a religious ceremony with our minister and a reception for 80 people. It was the most perfect day! Neither one of us would have changed anything.

Now here we are on Easter, me here blogging and her at her parents house, as we embark on our greatest journey yet. A journey to make us Mom's. We stand ready to jump on another emotional roller coaster. I've been reading people's blogs and I think I have an idea of what to expect, but I know that I don't. We have no idea what is in store but look forward to finding out. We have taken our first step, we have an appointment with a RE this Thursday to find out what we need to do to become Mama and Mami. We have forward progress!